Life feels a bit strange to me right now. Tomorrow Chris and I head to Seattle to see his Aunt one last time. I have never had a chance to say a proper goodbye to a loved one. It is something I think is very special and also I'm sure very difficult. I just don't wanna cry in front of her, I feel so weak sometimes. I also just found out that my Dad has a rare skin cancer called merkel cell carcinoma on his face. He will have to have some tumors removed and reconstructive surgery and hopefully the CAT scan will show that it has not spread. Seeing fear in my Dad's eyes makes me feel very sad. Suffering of any kind causes my heart to ache something awful.
This is why life feels .....strange. There are also a lot of wonderful things happening that make me happy right now. You all know I'm waiting for my sweet MINI to arrive, my niece just spent the weekend with me and yes I'm still riding that high, and because of this blog I have formed some real lasting friendships. Why just last year about this time I was getting ready for our trip to the UK to meet the sexy and sweet Vix. That was some adventure:) and we still speak regularly via Skype and I am so thankful for those precious conversations.
I have also been so lucky to form a close friendship with Cristi of Kiss Me Kitty, who is right here in Portland. Cristi read my blog for almost a year before she emailed me and said she had made me a special pink pair of leggings. She had never left a single comment on my blog but she was there the whole time. I am learning a lot from her, but the first thing she taught me was that sometimes you don't know who's listening and I like that unknown very much.
Caz of Nerd Burger who is vegan it was called Vegucated. I knew I should not have watched it, I'm a little in denial about where my meat comes from and what it's doing to the planet. Well I could not eat my dinner of chicken last night, the smell of it made me want to hurl. WTF? I really don't think I will ever eat chicken or a hamburger again. I ate this instead with rice. Something changed in me. So all you vegetarian/vegans out there share with me why you gave up meat and or dairy and when. I want to know.
I'll see you all next week!