Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Happiness only seems to exist when shared

Do you ever feel frustrated because you can't make other people happy?  I struggle with this. I guess its because I still haven't learned that you can't make other people happy.  Each of us has to do that.  I try and do things everyday that make me happy. These last few days have been a bitter sweet mix of both.  Finding vintage treasure makes me very happy.
 I rescued these two resin stars both were all of $2.
 Having green tea and Japanese food with Chris is always yummy!
 Remembering my folks visit makes me pretty happy and a little sad.
 My step Dad Jim can make anyone look beautiful!
 I am still very happy in my MINI!

 Having pretty Kiss Me Kitty leggings on always makes me feel a little brighter.
 Simple pleasures like doing my nails and my hair.
 Drinks at cool little bars in my kick ass city Portland.
 yes it had a pink hue, I was in my element!
 Trying new recipes, this is a Samosa pie and it was so good and totally Vegan.

 This cookbook has been on my must try list since it came out and so far I am impressed.
 Mermaid hair to keep me swimming in the sea!
  Fruit platters, yum!
 The memorial for Aunt Norah and Chris's Grandpa Sullivan was really special.
 Here is the bouquet of flowers and the pictures I put together.
 Not bad huh?
 My two beautiful nieces, I have much respect for their sister love!
 My sweet friend Cristi who is always there for me.
  The sun just keeps on shining and that is helping make life a little brighter.
 So did this orange little number found at a Portland Flea market, I also scored a kimono~FINALLY!
  Black is so dull but I made an exception with this dress because it shimmers.  
I haven't mentioned my Dad in a while because I don't want to bum you guys out and I'm not looking for sympathy.  As of yesterday he decided to not continue with the radiation, it's just too much for him right now.  My Dad has been through hell these last few months and I support him no matter what his decision is.  Seeing someone you love be in so much pain and be so alone is the most awful thing I have ever experienced.  It makes me feel a little guilty for being so happy most days.  


Vix said...

Oh Krista, your Dad's decision is so hard to deal with but yes, the best thing is to stay as positive and happy as you can and be strong and enjoy life now.... who knows what's round the corner for any of us?
Loving the mermaid curls, the new frock, how hot you look in black (can see why Chris loves that dress) and the KMK leggings. Your Step Dad does take a wonderful photo and the one of your two nieces is like something off a Hallmark card.
You always make me happy. Love you. xxxxxxxx

Kari Spriggs said...

Oh honey I am so sorry. We know your not looking for sympathy but you can't blame us if we want to give it with open hearts! All your pictures are just so beautiful. I want to try the pie, looks *incredible!* And the sun you can thank me I brought it from Phoenix just so you! :)

Carina Rosenholm said...

Im so sorry to hear about your dad and his decions must be so hard för him and your family to deal With.
You and all your pretty pics and colours makes me happy!
Love and strenght to you pretty mermaid!

Sandra said...

you have so much sunshine, you radiate it!
your Dad made a tough decision, but it's important to still have some joy in your life, I have found that to be true for me at times in mine,
your resin stars and mermaid curls and mini cars and yummy pies and gorgeous nieces are just fabulous, as you are x x

pastcaring said...

How hard must this be for your Dad, and for those who loves and cares for him? But it is his decision to take, and of course you respect and support him. I don't think he will want you to stop having happiness and enjoyment in your life because of it, though. If anything, maybe it will make you want to embrace life and all it has to offer more strongly, cos any of us could be faced with tragedy and hard decisions, anytime....
Your post is so full of life-affirming, joyful pleasures, from fun stuff to great food, to places to go, to dear friends, to much-loved family. You look gorgeous in all your frocks (yeah, even in black!) and yes, Jim takes a wonderful photo of you.
Thinking about you often, darling, and sending HUGE love. xxxxx

Lucys Lounge said...

what a lovely post so full of special reasons to be happy. some times we forget it si the simple things in life that matter.

your dad has made a big decision. he is a very brave man. i wish you and him well. you both will be in my thoughts. lucyx

Helga! said...

At the end of the day, it's his decision to make, and I'm sure it wasn't easy. He is a STAR, and I love the star he helped create and put out into the world-YOU. You are both in my thoughts.
Everything else in this post makes me smile. I needed that! So much to be thankful for and happy about! I love your new scores, and I love the sound (and look) of that samosa pot pie! YUMMO! I'm obsessed with cookbooks, and love getting new ones to try out!

Misfits Vintage said...

Oh I'm so sorry about your Dad. That is tough. You look gorgeous, as always, and you are right - you can't make others happy but you sure can brighten their day.


Sarah xxx

Janey G said...

so hard for you! So hard for your dad! Life is just shit sometimes!! and thats why we need to hold onto the happy things! Your blog is on my happy list! Big hugs my darling xxxx

Tamera Wolfe said...

{{{Hugs}}}} I am so sorry to hear about your Dad. Sometimes the treatment is worse than the cancer.
You look adorable as always!!!
I'm gonna check out that cookbook!!!!

No Peetee cuteness???

Trees said...

It's the simple things that make life worthwhile - let me know how the cookbook goes, I've had my eye on it for a while too (even though I'm not vegan)

Ulla-Marie Nilsson said...

When I was 14 I found out that my dad was not my real dad, but it was a secret (that everyone knew anyway) until he died of an aggressive brain tumor. Despite the cruel disease, I am glad I got to share so much time with him the last few months. We did not talk about the truth even on his deathbed, but I sat next to him. We held each other's hands (for many weeks) and our love was at least as strong as that between my dad and my (half) siblings. I love him so much for the fact that he loved me even though I did'nt look like him at all ... That it what it means to forgive! You have'nt asked for advice, but I still give the Council - not to drown in the talk about medications, etc. but devote yourself to love and good memories.

Edie Pop said...

Your father took a hard decision and it's important to support him, but you don't have to feel guilty if you are happy, I'm sure that it makes him feel better!
You have always the power of making me feel happy, when I visit your blog, the colours explosion, your beauty and all your photos and messages give me a positive attitude for the day!
I love you !!! xxxxxx

Anne said...

You are being a wonderfully supportive and loving daughter by being so happy. I am sure your Dad wants that most of all. Thank you for having such a beautiful positive attitude about all the little treasures in life. It is very inspiring and makes me stop and look around and be grateful for everyday wonders. Beautiful photos! How do you get your hair so smooth?

anton belardo said...

hi sweetie.. this post made me all teary eyed.. i wish i could hug you and cheer you up right now.. i feel bad for not being able to read or comment on your blog.. you have become one of my sweetest online friends.. its been a year since i last messaged you.. it was a crazy busy year and a lot of not so nice things happened like i got really sick and was in bed rest for almost 4 months.. i have an idea how that must feel .. i saw my sister like that when i got sick i thought i was going to die..and i saw my sister not really her usual happy self.. but i got better and i was lucky that it was not cancer.. and now i try to enjoy each and every day very thankful... i just want to give you a huuuuugge virtual hug your blog is one of the reasons that made me smile before everytime i was having a horrible day --- kisses A.

freckleface said...

Oh, that came as a shock at the end there after all those wonderful things you posted like samosa pie and mermaid hair, and that beautiful photo of you taken by your stepdad.

Your poor Dad. He's obviously been pushed to his limit and I imagine you've had some very dark days too. I admire your spirit in finding some happiness, it is easy to be consumed by all the negative stuff. The way I see it, anyone that loves you wants you to be happy. He can't make you happy, so you are doing that job yourself, which takes one small burden off his shoulders. I remember when a friend of mine told me her cancer had become terminal. I wouldn't let her see me cry because then it would be another thing for her to have to deal with. When people are that ill, maybe the best gift you can give them is not to have to worry about the impact on you. xxxxx

Nat said...

Hi Krista
Nothing can take away the pain that you feel for your dad right now and will be feeling over the next few months... but just know I think about you all the time.
Big big BIG hugs over to you... your beautiful spirit is an inspiration!

Nerd Burger said...

Krista it is so good that you are looking for some positives in this hard time. Please send my dad my love.

MamaZuzi said...

Hang in there. I lost my Dad year's ago and wish I had more time. You are looking good and still having some fun. Pet Peetee plenty too! Good for you both as you no doubt know. More later.


MamaZuzi said...

Oh and I'm guessing your Father wants you to be happy. :-) Sending hugs to all.

Anonymous said...

No words - just kind thoughts and strength to you and yours xxxxx

Crystal said...

miss krista, you are so loved on so many levels. sending you and your family love and light and goodness from your littlest mermaid friend's household! xoxo